Wednesday, July 28, 2010
not my day
well where should i begin. the day before i was feeling kinda funny so i knew my cycle was coming soon. i had plans to go out of town and visit family and didn't want to change my plans but knew that the first day is always the worst but i took the chance. i made sure i had my extra big napkins so that i wouldn't make a mess so i thought. anyway i go out of town and get to my uncles house where me and my husband are to spend the night in my uncles bedroom. well as the evenings goes on i go through about 4 infinity extra large(bigger than the over night pads) in about 3 hrs so i know I'm heavy. plus with every change i see bigger and bigger clots. until i see one the size of my hand and it scares me so i ask my husband what he thinks and he looks at the clot and about throws up. he said you need to go to the hospital. lol. i don't know what he thinks the doctor is going to do my gyn says there is nothing other than surgery. i have tried birth control doesn't work. and since i don't have any kids and we want children a dnc is not a smart option. so I'm making a mess everywhere and have messed up my clothes and my night clothes. i drift off to sleep thinking i have myself covered I'm laying on a towel and have two overnight pads on. i wake up a hr later to find myself a complete utter mess and the towel didn't work the bed is a mess and i only have one more outfit to where. time to go to the store. oh did i forget the pain yes the cramps were bad but i had more pressing issues to deal with. so i clean myself up and go to the store thank God for 24 hr walmart's. i had to go get depends undergarments to wear. i cant believe that i am 34yrs old and wearing depends for my cycle. on top of it all i have messed up my uncle bed and have to wash everything, the sheets the bed cover and all. wow what a day. now that it is 6am the day really hasn't started yet and I'm light headed and craving ice that i cant eat because I'm cramping. but mmmmm chocolate saves the morning from complete devastation. did i say mother nature can have her gift back. RETURN TO SENDER. mess on top of mess that was my night and all day. when i finally got home the next day all i could do was get in my bed with my diaper on and go to sleep. that was 6 days ago and its not as bad but still here. at least no more diapers. RETURN TO SENDER. had a similar day post back. i laugh now but wow what day.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
How awful! I can remember worrying about that sort of thing. (that was a few years ago) and now I am over with the periods and it is such a relief. But I do remember just before I completely stopped having my cycle I would 'gush', you know what I mean, 'gush' and I would run for the bathroom and see it I was a mess or not. I think this is common for people just before they stop cycling. Thats not what is going on with you though, you are too young.
ReplyDeleteStay strong, and someday a few years from now you can tell this story and it will all be in the past as you hold your child in your arms!!
You could use one of my "Stay Strong" bracelets, or the "This too shall Pass". For many different reasons they are both very popular now.
All my best, glad to meet you,
xoxo Sandy Comstock
www.TobyandMaxJewelry.blogspot.com
www.TobyandMax.com
Hey if you ever would decide to get something off my website make sure to put in the comments (Fellow blogger gets 25% discount) and you can pass that on to your friends too. I want to offer this to my new blogger friends I am finding and don't quite know how to do it.
thanks for the words of encouragement. i know one dat it will be my time. its good to know someone else can understand what im going through. i will check out your websites and see what i like thanks again.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you! It all sounds familiar...and I used to cry and feel so sad b/c the whole world was preg...now I have 3 sons. But keep yourself involved with a good infert. doc. or nurse who knows about infert. Most of all wait upon the Lord...His timing is always best! Always :) And love on everyone's children! Stressed out Mamas will sooo love your help.
ReplyDelete